Recently I found myself in a bit of a funk. Not a good kinda fun music funk either.
I’m sure you’ve had these moments too.
So I took my journal, grabbed my pen and started writing. I love journaling all the time, but find it particularly helpful when I find myself in these ‘funky’ moments. It helps me sift through the multitude of thoughts and feelings and get to the core of what’s going on. It’s a way I connect with God best.
As I started to write the theme ‘I feel like a failure’ started to emerge. Failing at this, failing at that, this thing isn’t succeeding, this other thing isn’t succeeding like I thought it would (and so the list went on).
Then in a sudden moment, I penned these words, it was 100% a Holy Spirit illuminating moment:
“You can just see why any sort of ‘doing’ that makes you feel ‘good’ is so futile, fragile, and passing. As soon as that ‘doing’ changes or stops, we completely crumble, as if we now have nothing to stand on.”
OOF.
Somehow I’d fallen back into tying identity, self-worth and value to the things I do, my performance, and success (gross).
The only thing we were ever meant to stand on as believers in Christ is Christ Himself! Our firm foundation. He, is never changing. His love for us, never changing. What He accomplished at the cross for us, NEVER CHANGING. This... my friends... is where our identify, self-worth and value comes from.
DOING DOES NOT EQUAL BEING
Forfeit the lie that your performance in anything determines your value. Your doing doesn’t equal your being (speaking to myself here).
‘Being’ comes from Jesus and Jesus alone, the price He paid for us.
I am learning more and more what it looks like and feels like when doing is only ever an extension of being. It’s a healthy place, it’s a fruitful place. I ‘do’ out of a place of already knowing I am loved and valued, not TO BE loved and valued.
Here’s another truth...
YOU WERE ‘GOOD’ BEFORE YOU DID ANYTHING
After God created humanity in the Garden of Eden He said the words “it is good”, this was before we even DID anything (Genesis 1:31). Now, yes, sin defiled that, but on this side of the cross, now in Christ, made righteous through faith, we are 'good' in God's sight. May any sense of ‘being’ (value, identity) only ever come from this one thing.
I hope you’re reminded today that your ‘doing’ doesn’t equal your ‘being’.
With Love,
Side note: I am not against ‘doing’, the Bible urges us to DO what it teaches. That’s not the point of this post.
